My journey has brought me to your journey.
Memorial Day, 1991
I almost drank myself to DEATH.
It was inevitable... anyone could see it coming.
Guilt, shame, never feeling good enough, always feeling unworthy overwhelmed me daily. I had zero self esteem. Consumed by negativity and self hatred, I wore a mask pretending to be anyone, but me. I couldn't stand to be me; I couldn't stand to be in my own skin, I couldn't stand the pain. I had to escape.
By way of an acute overdose of pills and alcohol, I escaped and almost lost my life permanently. While I was dying, I had a spiritual awakening. Suddenly, I was engulfed in God's pure light. It was radiating through every inch of my being. I could feel God filling the empty hole inside of me with his unconditional love. My life was transformed. Everything I had been looking for in all the wrong places was right there inside of me. I found bliss.
After my near-death experience, my life was transformed. I began writing in a gratitude journal, reading the Bible, and going to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. When I was strong enough, I joined a gym and became involved in my church. Years later, I was introduced to yoga and gentle movements that allowed me to find a way to let go of struggles and face life's challenges with greater ease.
It wasn't until I discovered meditation, however, that my soul found what it was looking for. Time spent in God's presence was so rewarding and the more I did it, the better my life became. Something truly amazing happens when you connect to the divine. I feel called to use my life experiences and professional background in interior design to teach others how to transform their life and environment.